Em có còn là em nữa không?

Thỉnh thỏang tôi cũng tự hỏi mình như vậy. Tôi rất ngột ngạt trong cái áo dịu dàng này,tôi mệt mỏi và tôi co nhu cầ phát tiết các cảm xúc của mình.

too many things in my mind

I do wonder how I could manage to alive in this madness. All these dark and negative thinkings are around me day by day.
Just in a moment, I can feel such a great pain in my heart, I know for sure it's not one-piece heart any more. It's a million pieces, stick together by an unknown obligation.
Why do I keep holding on? keep waiting for a better future, with or without him?
I want to let go, but I can't.
Who did stand by me when I found out that he had got a new one already? No one.
Who comfort me at night, with all the hidden pains in my life come out at one? No one.

I feel so lonely...

Will it ever ever ever be better?

Dear God, What did I do? I don't deserver this punishment...